As I write these words at 8:53pm, I can only observe my own astonishment. Approximately 3 hours ago, I sat down here at my “desk” to write and rant because…I was feeling “challenged.” An unexpected phone call gave me the opportunity to verbalize much of what had been on my mind. Direct communication with a like-minded individual typically helps me quickly find clarity during troubling times. Tonight was no different.
I was expecting to spend much of this time this evening alternating pomodoros reading and writing. I was going to spend time reading the latest article on economics. Lots of reflecting was going to take place during the writing pomodoros tonight – as I felt a need to reflect and be honest with myself as I felt I was carrying a bit of negative attitude with me lately…culminating in some stresses today both occurring at work and in my personal life.
The reading will have to be postponed until a later date, because reflection on the recent series of events and patterns in life is more appropriate. Perhaps two pomodoros of writing! Yes, I am feeling it…fifteen minutes into the pomodoro – it is like running, I am feeling in “the groove” now…in the “zone.” Where to begin…yes, the negative attitude. In addition to fear, much of this negative attitude stems from my own inability to be honest with myself.
Lately, I have had an increased amount of correspondence with some people in my past. It has been great catching up with old friends. This period of transition and the subsequent “catching up” with people has been interesting, to say the least. Effectively speaking, I have “culled” many of my friends and/or they have “culled” me. In this process called life, I have spent time learning about what is truly important to me, my core values. Often times I find myself writing about these things. I refer to them as my “areas of importance / project list.” The last time I spent time truly reflecting on this was about a month ago. Where does the time go?
Temecula Half-Marathon, Long Weekend in Joshua Tree, Thanksgiving Holiday, 10k Trail Turkey Trot, Goat Butchering Processing / Cooking meetup, but I digress…I suppose I’ve been keeping busy! At any rate, as of last month, the list was written as follows:
Today, reflection during my “Weekly Review” shows the Areas of Importance in order of:
- Work / Career
- Community / Socializing
- Volunteer Work
With that, this pomodoro is up!